Friday, August 7, 2009

Peeling away layers

One of my favorite words is pentimento.. *
it has a musical quality .
I remember I first read the word..
in a novel written by a woman.
..or is Pentimento the name of the novel?
Pages in my WTJ that are done in markers have bled thru to the back of the page and sometimes on to another.
The color is not as vivid, as the has a faded, peeled look..layers are gone.
I feel like I am living in a pentimento state.
I have been peeling back the crud, the barnacles .. rust,
I am suddenly feeling old.
I know all the beauty, creativity, experiences are in there somewhere..I just can't touch it.
Pentimento by Lillian Hellman
"Old paint on a canvas, as it ages, sometimes becomes transparent. When that happens it is possible, in some pictures, to see the original lines: a tree will show through a woman's dress, a child makes way for a dog, a large boat is no longer on an open sea. That is called pentimento because the painter "repented," changed his mind. Perhaps it would be as well to say that the old conception, replaced by a later choice, is a way of seeing and then seeing again. That is all I mean about the people in this book. The paint has aged and I wanted to see what was there for me once, what is there for me now. "
Introduction to Pentimento

n. pl. pen·ti·men·ti (-tē)

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